Back To The Shadows

By Jesse Batista

I’m headed down that path again, the solitary one
 Fighting the feelings, like I don’t belong.
 The spiral has begun
 There’s an emptiness inside me
 A hole through my heart
 There’s nothing left of this shattered shell
 A disappointment from the start
 
They pull me from the darkness
 Try and spark that light of hope
 But I retreat back to the shadows
 To hide the pain and hit the dope
 
like I’ve never felt a true connection
 But, I’ve known the truth all along
 I’m the monster that wants to kill me
 Only pain do I prolong
 Focused on the past
 from a sickness I can’t beat
 I cannot move forward
 I cannot retreat
 
They pull me from the darkness
 Try and spark that light of hope
 But I retreat back to the shadows
 To hide the pain and hit the dope
 
In this battle I am drowning
 must kill the voices in my head
 I’ll never be who they want me to be
 That part of me is dead
 
They pull me from the darkness
 Try and spark that light of hope
 But I retreat back to the shadows
 To hide the pain and hit the dope
 
It’s a never ending circle
 And round again I have come
 Hope has left me in despair
 Please Just let me be numb

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